What kind of people actually manage to get close to you these days?
L: People with a massive sense of humor. The ones who can laugh at themselves and make others laugh — they’re usually wired with serious intelligence, and without that, other people’s company is nothing but a nuisance to me.
And who do you push away immediately?
L: Rude people. People who are out of place, oblivious to context, with zero social awareness — they cannot be around me. I’d end up in a fight within minutes.
Have you ever been afraid that silence would be read as weakness or absence?
L: No, I’ve never had that fear — mostly because, unfortunately, I am constitutionally incapable of keeping my mouth shut.
What’s the least visible part of your work — and also the most authentic?
L: Writing. That moment when I’m truly alone with myself, in front of an instrument and blank pages. That’s the part no one will ever see — where I go down into the basement of my own emotions and keep descending. Is there anything more real than a person laughing or crying alone, with no intention of performing it for anyone?
Is your relationship with creativity still instinctive — or does strategy, control, and image-building factor in now?
L: No strategy. None. If I’d been strategic, I would have made very different choices — smart ones. I would have collaborated with whoever was hot at the moment and packed my records full of features. That’s never been how I operate, and it never will be. I’ve definitely come to accept that different worlds exist and can coexist — and that none of them is better or worse than the others. Actually, no. That’s not true. Some worlds are absolute garbage.
When do you feel truly aligned with yourself?
L: When I move without stress and face my commitments in an orderly way — that’s when I feel like the world’s timeline and my own are finally running in sync, without deadlines or impossible schedules crushing me.
And when do you feel like you’re playing a version of yourself?
L: I don’t fall for that anymore. There was a time I tried to live up to my own name, to what people said about me — I didn’t want to let anyone down. That whole system doesn’t exist anymore. I dismantled it.
Is there a part of you that you feel you’ve never truly shown anyone?
L: Just one?